Hello, my name is Kelly, and I’m an addict.

I should say I’m a recovering addict, and part of my recovery process is creating this blog.

I just completed a 30-day stay in a rehabilitation facility and am now reunited with my daughter, who was born right before I went into treatment and is only a month old.

Her name is Kaitlyn.

This is the story of how I became addicted to drugs, became pregnant and continued to abuse drugs during my pregnancy.

It is horribly shameful to admit, and I know my guilt will haunt me for the rest of my life. I am incredibly blessed and fortunate that while my baby suffered some complications from my drug abuse (I’ll get into that more later), nothing should be long-term and she can still live a healthy and happy life. I can still live a healthy and happy life, too.

I owe it to Kaitlyn to share my story in the hopes that it helps me maintain my sobriety, and maybe it can reach someone out there who is struggling with the same problems.

If you or someone you know suffers from addiction, please get help right away. If you are pregnant or know someone who is pregnant and struggling with addiction, take action immediately. See a doctor or treatment center and figure out a plan to safely discontinue drug use for the sake of the baby, if not for yourself.

I waited until I gave birth to get help and stop my drug use and I will never forgive myself. My daughter could have died, and I am grateful every day that we both survived and will be okay.

I know this story may be dark and difficult to read, but I have made a promise to myself and my child that we will have a happy ending. I am clean and sober now and committed to turning my life around and giving the best existence possible for my baby.

My drug of choice was methamphetamine. Meth is a monster of a drug. It ruins lives and almost destroyed mine and Kaitlyn’s. If you have no experience with meth, I strongly advise you to stay far, far away from it. It can mess you up beyond belief, trust me.

I’m not going to lie and say rehab was easy, or that I expect my recovery and new motherhood to be simple. But it is so worth it, and having Kaitlyn has brought new meaning to my life and given me something other than myself to stay sober for.

Keep reading if you want to learn about my experience with methamphetamine and pregnancy, and how I overcame it all.